The Latest Atrocity at Tel Aviv University

Tel Aviv University uses Clockwork Orange Methods of Education and Debate

In Israeli academia nary a week goes by without some university holding a malicious one-sided anti-Israel “conference” consisting of hate propaganda misrepresented as scholarship. The participants in these “conferences” never seem to include anyone who thinks Israel has the right to exist and to defend itself. The conferences are pluralistic and balanced in the sense that they include both Jewish and Arab anti-Semites, and may contain a whole range of communists from different splinters.

Well, this coming week Tel Aviv University will once again show its disdain for academic standards and serious scholarship. It is to host yet another Bash-Israel one-sided indoctrination “conference,” this one purporting to debate and discuss the Psychological Influences of Service in the Territories. In other words, it will be a pseudo-academic litany of rantings about how Israel’s “occupation” of the “occupied territories” causes devastating psychic damage to both the “Palestinian” inhabitants of those areas and to the Israelis serving there in the security services.




Now I can absolutely guarantee you that not a single speaker at this grand academic event will mention any psychic damages caused to Jews from having thousands of rockets fired at their children by genocidal Islamofascist terrorists. There will also be no discussions of the psychological stress caused to those Jew civilians blown to smithereens by suicide bombers, or murdered by snipers. In fact, no one will even mention the psychic damages caused to Jews by Arab terrorists whose violence makes it necessary for Jews to give up their time to do reserve duty and otherwise help prevent the terrorists from murdering Jews. No one at all will mention any psychological damages done to Jews from Arab fascists demanding that Jews be mass murdered, or when Arab leaders deny there ever was a Holocaust or claim that Jews drink the blood of gentile children for Passover.

Here is the official description of the conference (I think the main difference between this Tel Aviv University event and the Holocaust Denial conference in Iran was that the coffee was better in Tehran). This North-Korean re-education “conference” will take place Sunday, June 28, 2009 at Tel-Aviv University in the Hall of Justice, the Trubowicz Law Faculty Building

Official conference announcement:

Conference: "The Psychological Influences of Service in the Territories" - June 28th

Israeli society imposes on its soldiers serving in the army the role of control over another nation - the Palestinian people living in the Territories; these soldiers serve as the almost exclusive contact between Israeli society and Palestinian society. In this conference we will examine the psychological influences of the army service in the occupied territories, both on the soldiers themselves and on the Jewish society in Israel, that avoids direct contact with the Palestinians in the Territories, but sends and receives back its sons and daughters in their army service there. We will examine how open these influences are and how they are spoken about in our society, army, and mental health personnel.

Convention and Registration
09:00-09:30 Greetings on behalf of Tami Shteinmetz Center: Ephraim Lavi
Machsom Watch (seditious anti-Israel pro-terror propaganda group --- SP): Reva Bachrach - psychoactive.

09:30-11:30 First Session: Witnesses.
Reva Bachrach - Machsom Watch (seditious anti-Israel pro-terror propaganda group --- SP) Chairman – psychoactive: Barrier - salt of the earth? Soldiers' atrocities in the Intifada: Perspectives from the soldier, the company, the army and society.

Yoel Elitzur - Hebrew University: "To See if I'm Smiling" segments from Tamar Yarom's film.

Tal Ben Sira-Morag - one of the film's participants.

The cruelty of Givati (an IDF army brigade), and Liberal Morals (now THERE is an objective title for a lecture! – SP)

Zvi Bekerman - Hebrew University

11:30-11:45 Coffee break


Second Session: Cover-ups, Silencing and Silence
Chairman: Uri Hadar (anti-Israel post-Zionist extremist – SP) - Tel Aviv University, Psychoactive
Nisim Avishar - Herzelia Interdisciplinary Center: Blurring, Denial and Silencing from Close-up: The psychologists in the army and the first Intifada. Psychoactive

Edna Lomsky-Feder (one of the thesis advisors for that infamous thesis claiming that Jewish soldiers do not rape Arab women because the Jews are such racists --- SP) - Hebrew University: Psychological Talk and Normalization of the effects of the Occupation

Arnona Zahavi - Beyt Berl College: Dangerous empathy - silence and silencing in the psychological treatment of soldiers who killed and injured (not a word about sucicide bombers? – SP)

13:30-14:15 Lunch break

14:15-15:45 Small group discussions: The presence [lingering effects] of the Occupation in my personal and professional life

15:45-17:00 Final session
Chairman: Nachi Elon - psychodrama
Daniel Bartal - Tel Aviv University (who says that the Jews refusal to abandon Zionism is the real obstacle to peace and that Jews are racists but Arabs are not --- SP): The psychological impact of the Occupation on the Jewish society in Israel, and the price it pays for it.


Participation in the Kenes is free of charge
For details and registration: kenes@psychoactive.org.il Roni Shalit:0546-466582, Tami Cohen: 0544-628618

What is Psychoactive?
Behind the name "Psychoactive" stands a group of mental health men/women who have taken upon themselves to be involved in social-political subjects in general, and in the Jewish-Arab conflict in the territories in particular. The group acts out of recognition of the basic rights of a person, as a person, to spiritual well-being, alongside physical well-being.

We recruit the tools at our disposal as men/women involved in the treating professions, to deepen the understanding and awareness of the subject of occupation, and the continuing war between the two nations, and its repercussions in the populations on both sides of the conflict. These tools also serve us in advancing healing processes and advancing the psychological welfare of the individual, which is influenced by the societal-political reality in which he lives.

The group is made up of Israeli Arabs and Jews, and contacts are made with Arab mental health personnel from the Palestinian Authority. Members come from the social work professions, both from the field and from the academic community.

The group serves as a laboratory for developing initiatives in these subjects, according to the personal initiatives of the members of the group. The group meets every few weeks in different parts of the country, and is in constant touch through an Internet list.

Our activity

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Safety searches in Ben Gurion airport of Arab citizens: Writing of letters of protest against humiliating treatment of Arab citizens in searches in Ben Gurion airport. (They prefer that bombs go off on planes --- SP)

The psychological repercussions of the second Lebanon war: Writing and distributing petitions during the Lebanon war, that warn against the psychological repercussions on Israeli and Lebanese citizens. (Yeah, right, with no mention of the impact of 4000 katyusha rockets fired at the Jews)


A Study Day by PsychoActive Group 28.6.09
Mental Health Professionals for Human Rights
The Psychological Effects of Military Service in the Occupied Territories on Soldiers and on Israeli Society
Israeli society entrusts the task of controlling and administering another nation, the Palestinian people, to the soldiers who serve in its army. These soldiers constitute the more or less exclusive interface between Israeli society and Palestinian society in the Occupied Territories. Their encounter with Palestinian residents - at the military checkpoints, carrying out arrests, and while undermining freedom in diverse other forms – takes place from a position of power, authority and control and very often involves infringements of basic human rights.
This study day will offer an opportunity to consider the psychological effects of Israeli military service in the occupied Palestinian territories, from the point of view of the soldiers themselves, and from that of Jewish Israeli society as a whole, which, while avoiding any direct encounter with Palestinian people in the Occupied Territories, dispatches its conscripted sons and daughters to serve there . We shall also look into the question of the extent to which these effects are dealt with and discussed in Israeli society, within the army, and among mental health professionals.

Our activities have included (here are some neutral academic research projects --- SP):

• Protest against the manner in which Majid Kna’ane’s trial was conducted. Kna’ane, an intern in psychology at the Jaffa Mental Health clinic, was accused and found guilty of committing security violations.

• Writing up and distributing a petition during the war in Lebanon, calling for its immediate end, as well as explaining its consequences for the mental state of the citizens of Israel and Lebanon.

• Co-organizing a public event during the Israeli offensive on Gaza: A Gathering to Mourn and to Protest: Grieve together & reject the massive killing of civilians.

• Gathering testimonies of current occurrences in Gaza and their distribution.

Suppression, Violence, Anti-Jewish Apartheid and Cover-Up at the University of Haifa

The Jihad Sheikh with his minions at the University of Haifa
Well, things were already looking disgraceful and embarrassing enough for the University of Haifa, thanks to the approval of the heads of the university to allow the Jihad Sheikh, Raed Salah, the head of the Islamofascist movement among Israeli Moslems, to speak on campus this past week. The Jihad Sheikh there called for Arab students to become “shaheed martyrs,” code for suicide bombers. Moreover, the university had also given official instructions to the guards present to prevent Jewish students from entering the lecture hall in which the Jihad Sheikh was speaking. The Jewish student protesters present described the behavior of the guards, following university instructions, as the conducting of a “selection” (the name for the separation out of Jews done by the Germans). But then the university got itself in even deeper when it issued a statement that denied altogether that the Jewish students had been barred from entering the lecture hall or that the university officials had given any such instructions to the guards. That statement can be read here in Hebrew: It says explicitly that Jews were NOT barred from entering.

Except they were. The university is for all intents and purposes trying to cover up the disgrace of ordering that the lecture hall for the terrorist Salah be kept judenrein. Numerous media outfits, including those with leftist leanings, have confirmed that Jewish students were barred from entering. Eyewitness reports also confirm this. And the very same disingenuous statement by the university DENYING that Jewish students were barred from entering the hall then goes on to explain why it was necessary to keep them out: to avoid violence and confrontation inside the lecture hall. Of course violence and confrontation could also have been avoided by preventing the Jihad Sheikh from entering the campus in the first place and also by giving his student hosts the bum’s rush straight to the Gaza Strip. The university statement says that the university had no legal choice but to allow the Sheikh to address the Arab students on campus facilities. This is also a lie. Not only did the university have a choice, but – given the Sheikh’s call for terrorism and violence in his speech – the university had a legal OBLIGATION to bar him from campus and may have broken the law by allowing him to engage in incitement to violence in the campus.

But now, the most damning report of all appears in the Haifa weekly Zman Haifa June 19, 09, page 20. In its news report by its education reporter Orna Nirenfeld the weekly not only confirms that the guards were under university orders to prevent Jewish students from entering the lecture hall in which the Jihad Sheikh was calling for the murder of Jews, but the Jewish protesters near the hall were also assaulted and beaten by the guards in their efforts to keep the lecture hall judenrein. One student describes how women wearing headscarves and men with Arab-looking features were being waved through while anyone obviously Jewish was being stopped and some Jews were physically being pushed away from the entrance by over-zealous guards. Among the students violently beaten by the guards was Shlomo Variett, head of the “Lavi” student organization on campus.

The Jewish students barred from entering the hall held their own noisy protest against the Jihad Sheikh outside the hall, waving Israeli flags and singing Hatikva. One ultra anti-Israel professor at the University of Haifa, Micah Leshem of psychology, demanded that the University take disciplinary action against the JEWISH counter-protesters!!


Jewish student criminals against whom University of Haifa "academic" demands disciplinary action.

To whom can you complain?
University of Haifa:

President of the University of Haifa

Prof. Aaron Ben-Ze’ev

University of Haifa

Mt Carmel, 31905 Haifa Israel

Tel: 972-4-8240101

Fax: 972-4-8240281

E-mail: abenzeev@univ.haifa.ac.il



Rector of the University of Haifa

Prof. Yossi Ben-Artzi

University of Haifa

Mt Carmel, 31905 Haifa Israel

Tel: 972-4-8240405

Fax: 972-4-8342101

Email: yossib@univ.haifa.ac.il

Chairman of the Board of Governors

Mr. Leon Charney

Law Office of Leon H. Charney

Broadway 1441

New York, NY 10018

Phone: 212-819-0994

E-mail: charney@lhcharney.com

University "Friends of" Offices Outside Israel are listed here: http://www.haifa.ac.il/html/html_eng/friends.htm

Apartheid Comes to the University of Haifa

Judenrein at the University of Haifa?

The Jerusalem Post June 17 reports:


"Islamic Movement leader Sheikh Raed Salah gave a talk to Arab students at Haifa University on Wednesday, while Jewish students were not allowed into the lecture hall."

From Messiah To Deity

Apparently it was not enough that many of America's best-known journalists disgraced themselves and their profession by portraying Barack Obama during last year's presidential campaign as a savior-like figure come to redeem a sin-sick America. Now that the Anointed One is in a position to exercise his wise and benevolent rule from Pennsylvania Avenue, it will no longer do to cast him as a mere mortal.

In case you missed it, Evan Thomas, an editor at the new, deracinated version of Newsweek, remarked earlier this month that "Obama's standing above the country, above the world. He's sort of God."

Having proclaimed "The End of Christian America" in a cover story last April, it's only understandable that Newsweek is shopping for a new deity - in this case a Supreme Being refashioned in the image of the man who's been on the magazine's cover so many times in the space of a year, he might as well be incorporated as the publication's mascot/logo/figurehead.

Think of it: What the legendary image of Eustace Tilley - the fop with the monocle and top hat - has been to The New Yorker for better than eighty years, the beneficent and magnificent Obama can be to Newsweek, only where Tilley is a cartoon figure, Obama is, well, to quote Newsweek's Thomas, "sort of God."

If "sort of God" sounds like something of a hedge, it's probably because your typically liberal editor of your typically liberal magazine isn't about to prostrate himself before an all-powerful Lord of Hosts. No, something a little less imposing and far less threatening is called for - Divinity Light, if you will.

As Noemie Emery writes in The Weekly Standard:

"Obama being Obama, however (and Newsweek being Newsweek), this is not quite your usual God. This is not the God of Battles, to whom Henry V prayed before Agincourt. This is not 'Our fathers' God, to Thee/Author of Liberty/to Thee we sing.' This is definitely not the God of the 'Battle Hymn of the Republic,' as this God isn't given to trampling anything, and when it comes to the terrible swift sword, you can simply forget it. This God doesn't do swords, much less battles. This is a modern God, a media God, a God for Whole Foods, and the Politics & Prose bookstore on upper Connecticut Avenue, a God who is into recycling. There is the God of the Old Testament, and the God of the New Testament, but this is the God of the Newsroom. Religious tradition tells us that God created man in His image, but the press has created this God in its image - diverse, multilateral, and nonconfrontational. He is cool, hip, urbane, and extremely un-Texan. He is all that the Fourth Estate values in life, and aspires to be in its own private dealings. He is all it holds dear.

If Obama has been an object of unprecedented veneration for the Fourth Estate in general, a good part of his superstar status is due particularly to the steady stream of cotton-candy cover stories courtesy of the two major alleged newsweeklies. (Newsweek has at least more or less acknowledged what was true long before its recent makeover - that it's largely a magazine of liberal opinion; Time continues to keep up the pretence of objectivity.)

A prime example of the reverential tone accorded Obama by both Newsweek and Time is the following atrocity committed by Newsweek managing editor Jon Meacham in a recent psalm to the Great One:

"As he turned to make the walk back to Air Force One, a breeze blew - and everybody scurried anew, to keep up with him. It was that kind of day - and it has been that kind of presidency: Barack Obama, moving as he wishes to move, and the world bending itself to him."

The Weekly Standard's Andrew Ferguson wrote of the above piece of prose: "You could just imagine everybody reading this if anybody read Newsweek. They would admire the rich, fecund gorgeousness of Jon's prose - a breeze blew/scurried anew - and nod and tap their lower lips with their index fingers, because while everybody will say that Jon's point is true, it isn't. What Jon wrote, in fact, is the direct opposite of the truth. Even as the sentence was being written, the president was violating several campaign promises for the simple reason that he has had to bend himself to the world, as presidents usually do. And a good thing, too."

Bugs? Bugs? What Bugs?

(I am not a halachic expert nor a rabbi and therefore cannot pasken.)

When in recent centuries rabbis discovered the existence of microscopic bugs, they had a dilemma on their hands. How could Jews eat vegetables or drink water that, upon microscopic examination, contained bugs?

Their solution to this problem could have taken several forms. They could have declared eating vegetables and drinking water to be henceforth forbidden. Or they could have investigated methods by which one can eliminate these bugs (using bleach, or what have you).

However, they chose neither of these options. Rather, they declared a new principle: Anything invisible to the naked eye does not exist halachically. (If this principle was not new, let someone please inform me and I'll delete this post. However, based on what I've read and my discussions with others, I believe it was new and couldn't, in fact, have been otherwise since as far as I am aware the rabbis of the Gemara did not know of microscopic creatures.)

Why did these rabbis create this new principle rather than finding methods of eliminating or avoiding these microscopic bugs? To those who know anything about halacha, it appears clear that they did so because they did not want to cast aspersions on the behavior of generations upon generations of Jews who consumed these microscopic bugs. They realized that to create new standards regarding eating vegetables would imply that Jews since the year 2448 were eating non-kosher, and they simply refused to believe that. (They also apparently did not accept Rabbi Tendler's logic [as quoted in The New York Times regarding bugs in the water] that consuming these bugs only becomes sinful once one knows about them.)

Now let us examine the current bug crisis. The bugs that so many Jews worry about are extraordinarily hard to see. Some claim that when they look extremely, extremely hard, they can sometimes, on occasion, see tiny black dots, which they then discover to be bugs under a magnifying glass.

I recently heard a story from a prominent kashrus agency rabbi who related that a restaurant called up his agency and claimed it could not find any bugs in its stock of raisins (or perhaps it was strawberries) after checking them. This rabbi replied, "Hold on," and immediately sent down an "expert checker" who after a special, expert examination found 15 bugs in the batch in question.

My position is as follows: Any bug which a normal human being does not see as a bug and requires either a light box or an "expert checker" to see should be classified as halachically non-existent. My motivation for saying this is the same motivation that impelled those rabbis who declared microscopic bugs to be halachically non existent.

It should be obvious that vegetables in America in 2009 are certainly no dirtier than vegetables in Poland in 1609. To think otherwise is almost absurd. And yet Jews have never known the types of complex rules propagated today in some communities regarding the consumption of vegetables.

To declare today that a Jew must use a light box or must learn new special methods of checking or must forgo certain vegetables altogether is essentially to say that our ancestors have been eating not kosher for thousands of years. The rabbis who discovered microscopic bugs refused to believe this and we should too.

By all means check you vegetables as your mother and grandmother did. Check even more carefully if you are aware of an infestation in a particular vegetable. However, the mesorah never required a Jew to drive himself/herself crazy in this regard. If you don't see bugs after careful examination, they don't exist halachically. Never mind what the expert finder will find.

Political Extremism and Nazi Salutes on the Hebrew University Campus

To Left (double meaning) - the new look for Hebrew University leftism?
The Hebrew University just elected for itself a new president, Dr. Menachem Ben-Sasson, who used to be a Knesset backbencher from the Kadima Party.

His nomination comes not only in the midst of a financial crisis for the Hebrew University but also in the middle of a growing crisis of identity. The seriousness of that crisis was made evident yesterday when a group of leftist and Arab students on the campus, no doubt with the blessings of radical anti-Israel professors, gave Nazi salutes to pro-Israel students singing Hatikva and "Jerusalem of Gold." The story is reported in the Jerusalem Post today, here.

Like the other liberal arts secular universities in Israel (Tel Aviv University, Ben Gurion University, and my own University of Haifa), much of higher education in Israel has been converted by these institutions into leftist indoctrination and anti-Israel anti-Zionist "re-education." There are entire departments in which no non-leftist or Zionist may teach. Classrooms, especially in the social sciences, law, education, and humanities, are often turned into little camps for North-Korean-style extremist propagandizing. Incompetent pseudo-academics whose entire academic records consist of anti-Israel propagandizing get hired, tenured, and promoted, while dissident Zionist faculty sometimes have their careers sabotaged. Professors preach ideology in class instead of engaging in research and scholarship, and that ideology is invariably post-modernist anti-Israel Marxist radicalism. (The non-radicals seldom use their classrooms for political indoctrination. My own students do not have the foggiest idea of what my own political opinions are unless they google me on their own!)

The politicalization of the Israeli campus and the misbehavior of Hebrew University radical faculty are documented in detail at the web site of the Isracampus watchdog group here. Isracampus is a group initiative based in part on the legendary Campus Watch watchdog that operates in the United States, set up by the courageous Dr. Daniel Pipes.

Politicalization and radicalization of the faculty at the Hebrew University is about as bad as it is anywhere in Israel, and worse even than that on many American campuses. The whole collection of reports on Hebrew University extremism assembled by Isracampus appears here.

The Hebrew University record ranges from faculty members justifying anti-Israel terrorism, to other calling for an end to Israel's existence. It includes faculty members being arrested for engaging in illegal and violent behavior. It contains track records of numerous Hebrew University faculty members smearing Israel and Zionism, denouncing Israel as an apartheid peace-hating state, one that carries out horrific Nazi-like war crimes for the heck of it.

Anti-Israel students at the Hebrew university are probably much more rare than are anti-Israel faculty members, and there are probably less people in all of Eastern Europe who believe in socialism than there are on the faculty of the Hebrew University.

Nevertheless the growing anti-Israel faculty extremism there is having an impact, and the parading of leftist and Arab students on the Hebrew University's campus giving the Nazi salute in the middle of the meetings of the school's Board of Governors is disturbing evidence of this.

To right - Hebrew U's new Prez. He has his work cut out for him!

Rabbi Sacks on Judaism as a Forerunner

I recently interviewed Rabbi Jonathan Sacks, chief rabbi of the United Kingdom, about his new English-translated Koren siddur. The interview that was published focused on the siddur.

I also asked him a question on a different topic: I’ve frequently noticed that many in the modern Orthodox world, especially in recent years, have tried to minimize the uniqueness of Judaism’s place in the world – the Torah wasn’t that original, Chazal were influenced by surrounding cultures, etc. However, in his articles and books, Rabbi Sacks has consistently presented many aspects of Judaism as original and sui generic. This is what he had to say about it:

"Kadosh means distinct. Tzion means that as well. Am Segulah is a distinctive nation.
Most people think that to be a humanist means to be universal. I don’t, as I wrote in 'Dignity of Difference.' When Monet is at his most French, then everyone can enjoy him. When Tolstoy is at his most Russian, he’s at his best.
…Let’s have a little pride in who we are. I think Hakadosh Baruch Hu meant for us to be a blessing to the world."

NY Fringe Theater to Stage Play Mocking Self-Hating Jewish Leftists

To left, Professor Ben-Atar
The following story is amazing and unique in so many ways that I do not know how to count them. A leftist Israeli professor teaching in the United States, long active in "Peace Now" and similar groups, writes a play that mocks and denounces leftist "Post-Zionist" academics and self-hating Jewish "intellectuals," a play in which Palestinians are shown to be blind haters of Jews (even of "progressive" leftist Jews). The play is to be staged in New York City in its "fringe theater festival." And to top it off, Haaretz (Hebrew edition only) runs a raving favorable review of the play and its author!

The academic in question is Doron S. Ben-Atar, who teaches history these days at Fordham University in New York. He is a very serious academic, used to be on the faculty at Yale. He is an acclaimed scholar with a specialization in American history, and in particular writes a lot of serious things about intellectual property rights, trade secrets, and related issues.

Ben-Atar grew up in Israel. His father was a Sephardic immigrant from Turkey. Ben Atar's mother was a Holocaust survivor, who had been in Auschwitz. Ben-Atar previously wrote and staged a play about his mother. He was active in Israeli leftist groups before he went to NY to do his PhD at Columbia University.

Based on his personal experiences he decided to write a play mocking self-hating Israeli and Jewish leftists. The play is entitled "Peace Warriors" and it is scheduled to be staged as part of the NY fringe theater activities (see this). The play is about a group of whiney Jewish "peace" leftists, some ex-Israelis, one British self-hating Jewish radical, and some leftist American Jews. The Brit is the villain in the play, and he calls himself GW, based on his original name of Godfrey Warshevski, although he tells people it is short for George Washington. He specializes in seducing all the leftist women in the group.

In the play the whiney leftists spend their days mouthing anti-Israel slogans and trying to delegitimize Israel. Ben Atar says they are all based on real leftist academics with whom he has had personal contact.

He describes how was inspired by "dialogues" for peace in which he participated while at Columbia, where the leftist Jews spilled out their adoration for the Arabs present and their condemnation of Israel's army tactics, while the Arabs conducted long debates among themselves as to whether they should even be speaking with any Jews. He explores in his play the psychology of self-hating Jewish leftists and Jews who march around peacocking as proud anti-Zionists. He also mocks Meretz party activists he knew who were more interested in counting checks than in anything else.

When Ben-Atar staged his earlier play there was a role for an Arab. She was played by an Arab woman from Faradeis, near Haifa, who spoke no English, and she played a woman from the West Bank in the play. When that play was staged, a Jewish actress translated what the Arab actress was saying for the audience, but the Arab actress did not trust the Jewess and insisted that other Arabs be present to check the translating. Both actresses were supposed to be "peace activists" in real life but the Arab despised the Jew.

For Hebrew readers, the Haaretz review of all this can be read in Hebrew at this web address.

When asked if it is hard to be a Jew living in America, he answered the interviewer that NO, it is very easy, in fact TOO easy. What is hard, he says, is being an Israeli!

Is Obama America's President?

I have just finished reading the transcript of Obama's Cairo speech. As an American, I am deeply embarrassed.